What happens < 36 hours before our hardest finals

“My cortisol levels are so high right now!!”

“What if I slip on my soap and fall and can’t take my final? This apartment is so morbid.”

Classy smoothies in margarita glasses.

“This apartment is getting really violent today.”

School is hard

No kidding, right?

So not looking forward to next week.

Midterms suck. Also, my day of reckoning is coming. Soon my fate will be half sealed!

Yes I am being overly dramatic.

On the other hand, I love my roommates and TV premieres. Hehe.

Snippets

Life update for those who wonder why I have semi-disappeared from gchat/facebook/the world.

The Classes: I started out thinking this would be a chill semester because I wasn’t taking that many units. English, biochem, anatomy, no big deal. Oh wait, I have units for my seminar and research. And now I am suddenly treading water after becoming a UGSI and an SLC tutor. By the end of the week, I might have 22.5 units. What. The. Hell.

The Job: No longer exists after Friday. I had a long discussion with K. which made me realize I couldn’t keep adding to my schedule without leaving something behind. So I resigned from being a security monitor. Goodbye to my only paying job! Quitting sucks. I’m really bad at giving things up. Really, really bad.

The Apartment: I love the girls I am living with. We might all be loud and crazy and scare boys away, but I love coming back to my place after an exhausting day and sharing stories with them. They are good advice givers and listeners and help me feel better about myself. Also, they put up with me and my late night grumpiness. And they don’t laugh too much when I do stupid things like burn myself on my printer. Oh and I finally have a TV and DVD player, thanks to my wonderful daddy!

The Boy: I need to slow down and appreciate this one more. And that’s all I have to say about that.

The Family: I have not been home since pre-MCAT craziness. My dad was nice enough to deliver stuff to me in Berkeley, so I’m glad I got to see him. My mom is in Asia and I haven’t talked to her in a really really long time. I miss her. Kinda miss the bro too. I guess we chat/text/call sometimes which is nice. Blah. I feel like I need to get away from Berkeley for a while.

Other: I am sick. And on antibiotics. Not fun at all. Long story short, I should really start sleeping more.

I guess that’s it. Life is crazy, and I always wonder how I can forget that. Haha. But I guess I love it anyway!

Things you should know about me

This is for my dear roommates. Inspired by K.’s list and my boredom at work!

1. I am kind of a boy. I have an older brother, so I grew up on Legos and Power Rangers. I am most definitely a Star Wars fan. I also know a fair amount about Star Trek. My favorite N64 games were Mario Kart and Star Fox. I laugh at and make dirty jokes and it’s pretty hard to offend me. I wear t-shirts and jeans a lot and tend not to wear make up very often. But my mother has been working on me, so I guess that is slowly changing, haha.
2. I sing a lot. Usually I don’t sing that loudly when I know people are around because I get self-conscious super easily, but I sing when I’m walking, when I’m cleaning, and basically any time I’m not reading or writing.
3. I really enjoy organizing and cleaning things. Definitely one of my favorite stress relief activities.
4. I love reading. If I have any free time this semester, you’ll probably find me curled up in bed with a book. Sometimes I laugh at myself because all it takes for me to be satisfied is a good book and a warm comfortable place to sit.
5. I cry really easily. I have cried during every Disney or Pixar movie, and pretty much every chick flick. I also cry when I am frustrated, angry, stressed, or happy. Don’t worry though, usually all it takes is a good cry to set me back on track.
6. I have odd sleeping patterns. I generally try to sleep around midnight and get up around eight on school nights. Weekends are totally up for grabs though because I tend to either take late shifts until 3am or go out, which then lead to sleeping in until ridiculous hours. Oh and also, I sleep like a rock. Unless I’m super stressed out. Then I have sleeping issues. But usually, I can sleep through almost anything.
7. I care too much. My mom tells me this a lot. I invest a lot of time into people I care about, and it sometimes backfires when I feel like I’m not getting anything back. I also read way too much into things that people say to me and obsess over little details.
8. I worry. A lot. I tend to be a very future oriented person, which is good because it keeps me motivated. But sometimes I realize how much I want the things that I do and freak out thinking about how things could totally fall apart. Yeah I definitely over think things. Which leads to a lot of holy shit and wtf moments. Which also goes back to number 5.
9. I tend to take my anger out on the people I closest to me, namely my parents and boyfriend. If you hear me being completely unreasonable, feel free to tell me to stop being a bitch and figure out what’s really bothering me instead of just being pissy. Actually that goes for a lot of things because I overreact a lot. Keep me in check because I will definitely appreciate it.
10. I am terrified of spiders and other bugs. I will kill them and get rid of them, but I will scream. I also appreciate moral support when attempting to deal with said creatures.

And those are the big things I can think of right now. I love you all and I’m sure we will have a lot of fun together in our homey little apartment! You have already made me so happy with your support this summer through my MCAT ordeal and making sure I am okay. I got lucky, didn’t I? :)

Closets

When I was little, I used to be scared of sleeping with my closet door open. It became such a habit that I would always get up to close my closet door, even if I was already settled and comfortable in bed. Another one of my little quirks I guess.

And then last year, my dorm didn’t have closet doors! So I got used to having an open closet, even though it kind of weirded me out at first and I obsessed over keeping it neat.

Anyway, my weirdness about having my closet door closed has come back after moving into my apartment. I somehow managed to get the door stuck open yesterday, and it’s surprising how much it bothers me!

Okay.

I hate rain.

There better be a shitload of May flowers to make up for all this miserable weather!

On a happier note, I’m going to Sun God after finals!  C. kept asking me to go, and I finally decided that it would be my one chance of fun before hunkering down for a summer full of studying.  Hehe.  I love my friends.

Hmmm what else is new?

I had two concerts this weekend for University Chorus, and we sang Beethoven’s Mass and Porgy and Bess.  I actually had a lot of fun performing, and my roommates came to watch me!  Yay they make me happy.  Every time I hear an orchestra though, I can’t help but feel nostalgic for my CYS days.

Apartment hunting is turning out to be a bitch.  We had the perfect place, and then Everest Properties screwed us over so basically we hate them and have to find a new place to love.  Okay, I guess I was being unrealistic to think that everything would work smoothly and we would get an apartment just like that, but I’m still bitter.  Also, their customer service is shitty, and a guy basically hung up on me yesterday morning.  Way to go.

I think the rain is making my allergies worse.

Life without internet

Is boring.

I moved into my apartment yesterday, which went fine.  K is super nice, and I am glad Y is my roommate.  Cooking is going to be adventurous, although B helped me cut up stuff today which helped a lot.  We actually had a pretty good meal!  Hoorah.

Anyway, until Thursday, I have to either walk to Cafe Strada about two minutes away or trek all the way near Foothill to visit people and borrow their internet.  Lame lame but I guess it’s okay.  Last night Y and I went to sleep at 10 because we had nothing to do.  Maybe this free time will be good for me!  I can get more sleep!

Blahblahblah nothing interesting has happened yet.  Chem will be hard but I will survive.

OH!  They’re repairing the Campanile which makes me sad because it’s ugly now.

Goodbye until I actually have internet in my apartment!