What happens < 36 hours before our hardest finals

“My cortisol levels are so high right now!!”

“What if I slip on my soap and fall and can’t take my final? This apartment is so morbid.”

Classy smoothies in margarita glasses.

“This apartment is getting really violent today.”

Brain dead

Even though I have finals to study for and one last English paper to write, I have too much on my mind to sit down and open my biochem book.

Sometimes, I really don’t know why I let things like this happen.

Also, I should stop being a pushover.

But at least I know I will always have my friends when I need them the most.

Time to get into beast mode and kill some finals.

Days Go By

Here is an update of my life as of lately.  Or basically, since the last time I posted.

Let’s see.  Basically, after an entire semester of staying healthy, I got the flu.  Actually I don’t know what it was because my doctor was like “Well, it isn’t swine flu, but it could be either regular flu, strep, or the common cold, depending on what happens.  Just call me if anything changes or gets worse.”  Thanks doc.  I still think it was the flu.

I honestly cannot remember the last time I was that sick.  Thursday was definitely when the worst of it hit me, and I was a complete mess.  I was so weak I had to grab onto whatever was closest just to walk around, and I could barely even feed myself oatmeal.  So in my desperation, I begged my Daddy to come pick me up and take me home.  I know, I’m pathetic, but what can I say?  Of course, my mother once again reminded me of the fact that Berkeley is the best place for me and what would I have done if I had gone to a school far away aren’t you lucky blahblahblahblah.  Love her.

And that was that.  Saturday, our family drove up to Davis for E.’s graduation.  Even though it sucked to drive in the rain and I got blisters from wearing heels and had to step in puddles and had to play mediator, it was a worthwhile trip.  I am so proud of my big brother!  Oh and I finally got to see his apartment which basically made every apartment I’ve ever seen in Berkeley look hella janky.  So unfair.

Monday and Tuesday I had all of my finals.  They went pretty well, but mostly I’m just glad that I survived them after being such a pile and not being able to study monster like I usually do.  Oh, except I did fall asleep during both my bio and music finals.  But…let’s not talk about that.  Anyway, now it is Wednesday and I and home and I can finally let everything go, curl up in bed with some good books, and catch up with people.

Oh yeah, I have a new phone and unlimited texting now!  Best early Christmas gift ever.

Cause while you wait inside the days go by.

Spazz

Ever since my chem final ended, I’ve had a lot of trouble concentrating.  I mean, a LOT.  I literally can’t sit still.  Yesterday during my Classics final, I got up to go to the bathroom just because I couldn’t sit there any longer.  I used up on my brain power on chem!

Anyway, my last final is in about four and a half hours and I’m not even done writing my cheat sheet yet.  I’m not even that worried, because all I can think about is going home.  I am so excited!  HOME! TONIGHT!  And I get Facebook back tonight too!  Which is more exciting to me than it should be.  Darn me and my stalkerish tendencies.  It’s okay, my roommate said I have a “healthy and natural curiosity” about things hahahaha.

Okay, my last calculus exam (EVER) awaits.

CUPERTINO!!!!!!

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I FUCKING HATE MY NEIGHBOR.  HE IS THE MOST INCONSIDERATE BASTARD I HAVE EVER MET IN MY LIFE.  ONE THING THAT IS KEEPING ME FROM PUNCHING HIM IN THE FACE IS THE FACT THAT AFTER TODAY, I WILL PROBABLY NEVER SEE HIM AGAIN.

Exile

I have decided that my self-imposed exile from the internet does not include blogging.  No Facebook is enough for me to be a million times more productive.  Okay, not that much but you know what I mean. 

Apparently, phone callse are no longer cool.  Everything is online, through Facebook, or whatever.  I’m not one to complain, there are very few people I actually call to talk.  Sometimes it’s just easier to talk online.  But the one thing I like about phone conversations is how you really have to stop doing other things and just concentrate on the person you’re talking to.  Or many that’s just me.

Anyway, I have been feeling lonely because most of my human contact this week has been my roommate, a tiny bit of studying with other people, and random gchatting when I happen to be checking my email.  Finals really sucks the social skills out of me.

Tomorrow is my first and hardest final, and I have been studying like a monster for it.  Hopefully all this work pays off.  I feel a lot better about it than I did on Monday, so I’m taking that as a good sign.  My roommate had her last final today.  I can’t believe she’s done with all of her before I even start!  So jealous.

I have 9 little cans of V8, 4 fruit cups, and 8 Vitasoy boxes.  Four days until I leave.  Can I do it?  We shall see.

Wish me luck!

Oh and I am really excited for May 27-30th.