I don’t blog much anymore

I guess I have found better things to do with my time?

Yeah right, I just studied a shit ton for finals and then never got back to this after, haha.

Anyway, summer is here and I am busy like usual, but not so much that I can’t relax. I’m home for the weekend which is nice. Except I keep seeing spiders. Fuck! I really don’t like spiders. I did well in all my MCB classes, so I am happy. My major GPA is reviving itself, hooray!

I went to San Francisco on Tuesday and I think I saw Heather Morris. She was running down the stairs of Forever 21, which I thought was weird. But they I told K. about it and apparently she was in a concert that night in San Jose so IT TOTALLY COULD HAVE BEEN HER. I like shopping and I like spending time with my favorite. And we like to eat. We are getting fat together. Ugh.

I guess my life really isn’t that interesting that I feel a need to blog about it. Actually, my life was never really that interesting but I guess I got bored easily and liked to talk about myself. Wow that made me sound really self-centered. But I’m really not. Also, nobody really reads this anymore.

Guess I’m gonna go back to playing Tetris or eating or something.

Goodbye and hello

Sooooooo.

MCATs are over and done with! There’s not much else to say about that. I feel okay about them and I will just have to wait and see. But damn, walking out of that test center was one of the best feelings I’ve had all summer.

I realized this past week how lucky I am to have such great friends. The calls, texts, emails, facebook messages, letters- they all cheered me up so much when I was ready to just curl up into a ball and hide. It’s nice to know that my friends are on my side, so thank you for that. I really don’t know what I would have done this summer without some of you :)

I’m glad I’ve had Tuesday night and yesterday to kind of just be lazy and lounge around before getting back into school mode. I guess today was chill too besides my getting lost in Oakland on the way to the DMV ordeal. Yeah no bueno. But I did read an entire book during my wait to replace my driver’s license. Hahaha. Two-ish lazy days of summer is better than none!

Alright.

Goodbye MCATs and summer, hello Fall 2010. Please be good to me.

Summer lovin’

Even though I kind of have too much on my plate right now, I still love summer.

Maybe it’s the sunshine.  Maybe it’s the prospect of wearing cute summery clothes.  Maybe it’s the fact that I am the happiest I’ve been in a long time.

Hahahaha oh weekends, how I live for you.

Also, I have a new webcam, so y’all can stop laughing about how my face takes up the whole frame.  And I can finally get the keys to my apartment on the 10th.  And I kind of just like being at home right now :)

A breath of air

Before I jump into the last days of summer session.

I had my second o-chem midterm today, and I really felt like a weight was being lifted off of me as I walked out of the classroom.  Since Thursday, I’ve been frantically studying and doing my best to get a ton of information into head.  It’s been especially hard because I haven’t seen a lot of my friends all summer, and every time I go home I feel like I’m neglecting them.  Also, I went to the Jack’s Mannequin/The Fray concert on Saturday and I first I felt like I couldn’t enjoy myself at all because I was fretting over the practice tests I still had to do.  But as soon as The Fray came onstage I got pumped up so it was okay!  I had my few hours of fun!

This whole summer session thing has kind of been a drag because I expected things to be a lot different.  I expected to be able to go home on weekends, leave all thoughts of school behind, and just hang out with people and catch up with what everyone has been up to.  Instead, I’ve been stuck with insane amounts of work every weekend, and it’s all I can to keep up.  I guess I’ve just been feeling like I’m being left out of all the summer fun, and I’m not super happy with how this part of summer has panned out.

But now that it’s almost over, I know that it was the smart thing to do.  I’m sorry to all the friends I haven’t been able to see.  I’m sorry to my Berkeley buddies for having to deal with a strung out Andrea before her midterm.  Thanks for dealing with that.  And I don’t think any of you read this, but for you kids who visited Berkeley last night/today, sorry for being such a drag at lunch and not being able to be a good host.

Breathe, breathe, breathe.  And then go back for more.

Work hard, play hard?

So this weekend will be my last weekend home before summer session ends.  The sad thing is, I’ll be studying all weekend for my midterm on Monday, with the exception of a few hours when I get to go see The Fray in concert!  Yay!

But study study study is in my near future for a long time.  One more midterm, three more lab reports, and two finals.  The end is in sight!  I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!  But it’s going to be a hard few weeks.  Send me good vibes!

And thennnnnnnn one short week before move-in day.  How did summer slip by so quickly?

Oh well, gotta get my share of play in that week.  August 14th-21st.  Yeah yeah?

Home and back again

My plan to finish both my problem sets before going back home was definitely a good idea, because I didn’t feel that guilty hanging out with people and neglecting my chem stuff.  I mean, I should still get cracking on some studying, but I feel so much better than I did last time I decided to go home.

Home never ceases to surprise me.  Everything is so familiar and peaceful, but things are always just slightly off.  We have a new refrigerator.  I probably saw my brother for a total of twenty minutes this weekend.  I didn’t exactly spend a lot of time with my parents either.  Hanging out with people is fun but also kind of weird at the same time.  I don’t knowwwwww.  I just feel like I’m never completely satisfied where I am.

I don’t really know what to think right now.  I just know that I am suddenly very irritated at the prospect of studying for my quiz tomorrow.  I also am very crabby from my screwed up sleeping schedule.  And I also feel guilty for telling the truth.  Maybe sometimes it’s better to just keep my mouth shut.  Ughhhh I just want some peace of mind.

Life without internet

Is boring.

I moved into my apartment yesterday, which went fine.  K is super nice, and I am glad Y is my roommate.  Cooking is going to be adventurous, although B helped me cut up stuff today which helped a lot.  We actually had a pretty good meal!  Hoorah.

Anyway, until Thursday, I have to either walk to Cafe Strada about two minutes away or trek all the way near Foothill to visit people and borrow their internet.  Lame lame but I guess it’s okay.  Last night Y and I went to sleep at 10 because we had nothing to do.  Maybe this free time will be good for me!  I can get more sleep!

Blahblahblah nothing interesting has happened yet.  Chem will be hard but I will survive.

OH!  They’re repairing the Campanile which makes me sad because it’s ugly now.

Goodbye until I actually have internet in my apartment!

Wait what?!

In a week I’ll be back in Berkeley.

I’m kind of worried about my ability to focus and use my brain.  Watching this much tv is probably not good for my smarts.  Or my eyeballs.  My poor eyeballs!

Textbooks?  Chemistry?  What?

Then again, I will not have daily dealings with my parents.  Hm.

Expectations

I think I have finally lowered my expectations for summer/vacations to a good level.  Instead of hoping I’ll have fun all the time and hang out with my friends every single day, I have made reasonable goals.  Which makes me happy!

I’m not sure if I should feel pathetic or happy.

I finally cut my hair.  I am happy.

I watched lots of “How I Met Your Mother.”  That also made me happy.

But most importantly…I have new shoes!  Teehee.

Oh, summer.

Emotional detachment

Sometimes I feel like I get too emotionally attached to things.  Places, sounds, random objects, and people.  Most notably and obviously people.  

For the past few days, my dreams have been haunted by a select few individuals and variations of moments I had with each of them.  Maybe it’s because I don’t have as much to think about over the summer.  Or maybe I have too much time to think about what might have been, what could have been, blahblahblah.

I feel like I’m slowly driving myself insane.  What I need is a slap in the face to bring me back to reality and what has happened and what lies ahead of me in the future.

Sometimes I wish I could just turn off my emotions for a day to relax and detox from all these weird feelings.  Yes.

I don’t like my eyeballs.  My astigmatism is worse, my prescription went up, and I have to use eyedrops and take fish oil supplements for my dry eyes.  Yippee!